Scadalous/ Thursday, May 12
i'm totally devastated..saw his gf's pictures in his palm..i'm so..totally fuked up jealous and turning green..beginning to get angrie with him..fer cheating on mee..trying to cover up de fact tt he has a gf..i noe i knew all along..but he doesn't noe i knew..til todae..ina took his palm to take pics of mee..and she was trying to find de pic she took of me in his palm..he has 7 folders..full of pic..den ina went to.."My pictures"..there stood 3 fotos of her alone..and 4 more of them together..!! F***ed up!! he saw me looking..and he went frantic..taking de palm back immediately..but wad was dere to hide..!! y bother to hide..to tt he could manage my heart thinking tt i didn't noe he has a gf..idiot..IDIOTIC..it isn't fair to mee..not at all..at tt instant..my heart realli sank..hearing and seeing is 2 different thing..while doing closing..one of them juz suddenly said..his gf is back already..den i said..she not m'sian meh..he sae she s'porean..but i heard she's a m'sian..i also dunno la..all i noe is..IT'S TOTALL UNFAIR TO MEEe!! not tt i wanna cum btw them..but..he could haf been honest from de start..he didn't exactly tell me he dun haf one..but he alwaes try to hide it and make it sound like he didn't haf one..and tt was wad i alwaes tot..tt's y we were close..but..I SOON REALISED he has one..and it was CMF-ED todae!! anyone should haf seen tt "SHIT..SHE SAAW IT" look on his face..now dere's nth to hide..and it explains y he alwaes dun allow me to see his palm..yet he allows jing to..cuz he dun wanna me to see her pics..and i could sense it..idiot!! LIAR LIAR!!! BIG LIAR!!! i hate him!!!
yet i can't bring myself to hate him..everytime we get closer..i kept damn hell telling myself..HE HAS A GF ALREADY!! but i juz can't bring myself to shun him awae..and keep a distant from him..thinking tt my last dae is on sundae is juz making things worse..all de more i dun wanna push him awae..and shun him..!! NOT FAIR NOT FAIR!!!
MEDDD TRACCYY KIM!!! ARGHh...sumtimes i wish he would leave her fer mee..such a bitch rite..but i also wun want la!! such a bastard den..it's his gf fer 2 yrs..ARGHh..i dun like him!! yet i like him..hate him..yet can't bear to..wanna keep a distant from him..yet i can't resist him..IDIOTIC GUY!! den y muz he keep leading me on..he's an ass..IDIOTIC!! i'm feeling so messed up..i hope everything will fade with de passing of time..yeaH!! his gf is back in s'pore le..i shan't be a bitch to S-N-A-T-C-H..sumone teach me how to keep awae from his..and hold my guard against him..in order not to let myself fall deeper..he arh,..SUCH A FLIRT!! FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT!! I WANNA COMPLAIN TO HIS GF!!! i'm cranky..forgif meee...eh..i sound angrie hor..but i'm not laa..haha..it's still a happie dae todae..cuz terry off..cuz of him..haha..
indulgence in the wee hrs 0f..
12:03:00 AM
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